Smiles are Shining

If the sky was on the ground, I wouldn't mind not being able to fly

Plain White T's - Shine [hear it, it's beautiful T-T]
Dedicated to someone very special to me.

You know it tears me up inside
to see the feelings that you hide
Hide inside that empty bottle
I wish you saw how great you were
I wish you saw what life was worth
You wouldn't have to hide your problems

And I don't care what you might think
Can't even talk when you're this way

Run away, run away
But that won't make it any better
Run away, run away
And make tomorrow harder to live than today

There's so much out there you could miss
there's so much life out there to live
If you would just believe in yourself
You know you're better than all of this
you know you've got so much to give
But you're so afraid to give all of yourself

There's a bright light shining inside you
it shines out through your eyes
Don't drown it away, don't be afraid, don't hide
Let it shine

You say you're looking for happiness
but when it comes, you run away from it
You tell yourself you don't deserve it
There's not much more that I can do
now the rest is up to you
Until you love yourself, you'll never change

Run away, run away
But that won't make it any better
Run away, run away
And make tomorrow harder to live than today
Run away, run away
You'll keep on running until you deal with today

This morning I had a bad dream... Not a nightmare, just a negative dream.

I was inside this enormous building that reminded me of the Mayflower in the movie Mirrors. I was meant to get something from this cupboard but this kid started saying I'm doing something wrong and he released some sort of... lizard dragon monster from a drawer and it started to chase me. I ran and ran and ran - why do I keep getting dreams of myself being chased? - across the dark and broken corridors, only lit with dim white lamps. I hated that moment.
It bit me, caught me, but I kept running and I didn't get hurt at all. Soon it disappeared, and I saw sky-lengthed doors, opened, the bright beams of light entering from it very welcoming... I sped towards it and jumped off the staircases, and for a few seconds I was flying. It felt like something in movies. I landed on the grass and my family was there, one of them had Starbucks and I was like where'd you get that? And when I looked to my left there was a Starbucks stand.
Suddenly we landed in front of my home, which seemed to be connected to someone else's. The house was big and grey and people were crowding at the front welcoming us back. I think we were on holiday. I was told to go inside to fetch our keys, and there was Cania, Dhe3, Izza and some other girls. To the right were the boys, sitting together on a long chair playing a game. I knew the house belonged to Fajar because it was Om Agus that searched for the key. After obtaining it, standing to the left of the long chair, I stared at the row of boys, waiting to get a look at Fajar because just like in real life I haven't seen him in a long time. When his head was unblocked by the other boys' heads, he turned to look at me and I smiled and waved at him and you know what... he just stared at me blankly, then turned back to the game. He looked back up again and I tried again and this time he did a small grin and lifted his hand up. Then they all went inside a room and started abusing Fadhli, then there was a story about Fikar escaping from stairs, and a picture of Boii and Poppy popped up. I turned to the girls and talked to them, and it ended.

Well, it was a bad dream because of Fajar's reaction.
Who knows what will happen in real life when we see each other again? Will he do the same thing as he did in my dream? Before having it, I wasn't worried about anything. But now, I'm afraid...