Year 12s' Day Out

Another entry? Yes, sorry.

I had like the saddest dream ever. All of us were gathered somewhere, in front of me was this large door or something with lots of decorations. Apparently I entered the dream at its climax, because I could already hear myself talking to Fajar sadly. Turns out that the door thing was his birthday present from last year. Since we're not talking right now I wanted him to accept this year's present, which was a better version of the door. But, Fajar didn't wanna accept it - I actually never heard his voice in the dream but he was speaking - and I started doing my rants. I was saying things like Fajar we've been close ever since we met, I was the only friend you ever needed, I'm leaving this year so why can't you accept this? Do you really want to end our friendship? you get the point. Towards the end I started crying really bad, I could've sworn I was crying in real life [but when I woke up I wasn't, prolly dried up already...]. I sobbed so hard I was incapable of continuing @__@; Then, my face buried in my hands still weeping, Fajar started hugging me but nevertheless after a while walked away with the rest; the present was still rejected T__T I turned around to find myself in Masjidil Haram, but in a different layout. It was so weird. Cania passed by and I wanted to talk to her about something but she snapped and it seems that she didn't wanna be my friend anymore 0.0 I then went to pray on top of a random hill and when I got in the hotel the scene immediately changed to some make-up place... Stupidly enough I was a candidate for some Top Model show. What a way to end a horrible, horrible dream...

I woke up and had Jelly and Chocolate Crepe for breakfast and did lame stuff 'til 12-ish where I had to go to school for Graduation Rehearsals. The yearbook was out it seemed but the cover sucks like hell and I regret not drawing one. I talked with Lara and Madusa before entering the hall at 1:30. It ended at 3pm, all we did was get ourselves sorted and practise the walk and how to receive a damn certificate. The aisle-walking song is 6 minutes and 11 seconds gleeek wth @___@; The steps take ages. It was very nice seeing everyone though. (Y)

So, after that we spent some time looking for Madusa's phone which we ended up concluding as lost [by the way I flipped through the yearbook and found the twins' class picture amusing] and got in a fancy taxi which costed like 32QR just to go to CC. RIP OFFFFFF. Just because the car is nice and not Karwa, bleh. When we reached we met up with Iman and Rodha and since my stomach was playing death metal I had to buy KFC Crispy Strips Light Meal and eat. The movie was starting soon so I bought like a large cup of Magic Corn for snackage. Such a gluttonous skinny person I am.

We were watching The Uninvited, apparently. I wanted to watch The Last House on the Left but this one was really good in my opinion. I thought the story was very smart and ironic, like, twisted you know. I recommend you watch. It's not that scary but it may surprise you. Because the music was always so creepy I kept thinking something major frightening will appear so I was always huddling next to Shaza on the HUGE chair [we sat right at the back] which I don't think any of you has seen before and continously covered an eye of mine with my fingers. But, nothing scary really happened. Well it WAS scary but not like usual horror movies. Damn why am I typing about such a thing at 11pm...

Aaaaaanyway, to more pleasant thoughts, we had a walk around the mall for a bit. We're weird so we ended up at the bookstore and spent like 10 minutes there before moving on to the uber goth and manly store with a circle door which Madusa really hates 'cause they're so ugly. Then at the Xtreme Food Court place I was tempted to buy Happy Ice Cream. Turns out Lara has never seen such a creation before and was thoroughly intrigued at her mixed flavoured concoction. OH AND YOU KNOW, she never ate Magic Corn too and she loved it when she bought some. Basically I introduced her to new mall food LOL. She was thankful you know.

Iman had to go home already so it was just us. They dragged me over to Applebee's where I wasn't in the mood to eat but the Mushroom Soup Shaza ordered SMELLED SO GOOD [I totally disturbed her] so I decided to order it before running off to Sholat Maghrib. When I came back the beautiful bowl was already there and at the first sip I was already in love. PURE DELICIOUSNESS. I recommend you guys to try it, seriously. I don't regret not buying it (Y) When I was done Rodha told the people to sing happy birthday to Shaza and they brought ICE CREAM AND CHOCOLATE CAKE but I couldn't eat them, of course not. The girl was so embarassed, 'cause face it the song the staff sang did sound pretty stupid.

There's mushrooms in there, they just sank XD

It was like 7:30 already. I had to go home so I walked all the way to the center of the mall. I found Jozali, Osama Sherif and Khalid Selim waiting for a ride beside me and when they passed the Head Boy smiled and said Hi Syania and the latter 2 greeted me too xD In the car my parents pointed out like 3 policemen writing tickets to vehicles parked in the wrong area LOL. It was funny 'cause they were like kinda huddling ish. At home I did... stuff... I couldn't eat another bite of food.

If you didn't realise, the words I coloured blue symbolise all the food I ate today
which was basically junk

High School Does End

Title edited from Bowling for Soup's 'High School Never Ends' =p I only listened to that song once and never did again. LAUGHS.

So, this is my entry about the 7 years I've spent in Qatar International School, the school I've stayed in the longest, the school where I watched people come and go, the school where loads of significant memories happened. Beware it's going to be long, and I think none of you know most of what I'm going to type below. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed remembering it =p *LOL I sound like an author.

Year 6
I remember wearing those hideous pinafores. I also wore socks up to my knees. Jozali and Yacout were new kids like me. My first friend was Maduka aka Madusa, and not long after that I met Leila and we became the best of friends. Simply because one day I was drawing Cardcaptor Sakura in breaktime and Leila went over and asked 'You know CCS?' and I said 'Yeah' and we started talking. People used to gather around me 'cause I drew. Me, Madusa, Leila and another girl called Hanan were a group and we called ourselves BCGFF, aka Best Cool Girl Friends Forever. It was the gayest thing I've ever been a part of but we realised that in year 8. Quran and Arabic were the funniest times, we called Touseef a frog 'cause he kept hopping in class and I always got in trouble. I think Tahan aka Nashasheebi now threw a pen at us once. Whenever there's Arabic A me and the Arabic C gang go to Year 1 to help out. I also found my 'twin', Feras, he had the same birthday as me and was only 3 hours younger. He was a huge pervert, I remember when Ms. Waller left the class he stood on the desk and started dancing and talking about pen15es. He got in trouble and cried after Woodhouse scolded him. He was also the one that taught me what sex is. We were really good friends. I think one time he hit me with a ruler and I nearly cried, it was so dumb. I was close with people called Soraya, Leila, Maduka, Danial, Feras and Zored. I forgot who else. I'd write some more sentences but I'll stop there =\

Year 7
Me and Leila were in the same tutor group and became even closer. I think in my 1st English lesson we had to do this elevator drama and that's where I met Rula, my 2nd best friend in junior high. She wasn't shy at all and was such a good actress. After a while me, Leila and Rula became a trio and every birthday, Eid al Fitr and Eid al Adha we would give each other presents. ALWAYS. But I hardly bought things, I always made them with my own hands, like this paper notebook I made for Leila that I designed myself. My friendship with them is the closest I've ever felt to ones in TV [girl ones, that is]. By the way, this year I liked Danial, but I didn't tell anyone.

Year 8
The difference from last year was that we had 3 new people called Mizah, Amanda and Jennifer, plus it was a lot more social and fun. We became close with Mizah 'cause of what me and Leila did in Arabic. We learned the word 'pin' in arabic, which was dabbabah, and the plural was dababees. You do NOT know how much we laughed at that word. It really was the funniest arabic word I've heard. One day Mizah sat in front of us and Leila started pushing her chair and saying 'Dababeeeeees' over and over again and that's how Mizah got her nickname - Dababees. Yes, we called her pins. She was malaysian by the way. On my first day of Year 8 I got scolded by my tutor called Abdallah, who our gang mock her as 'Lardo', just because I said 'what?' instead of 'excuse me' when she called my name. Leila made that for her. Lardo was FAT and stupid. And a useless art teacher. One morning she sat on a chair and it literally BROKE and the class had to stop themselves from laughing. The Lardo defended herself by saying 'Oh it was already wobbly' bla3 but that didn't stop Leila from telling everyone in school [she was extremely popular and had loads of admirers]. Me and Mizah made an Anti-Lardo Campaign in Geography when we were passing notes, the teacher left the year after though 'cause she found a dude or something [my sympathies for him]. We had such sucky teachers like Abdallah, and Stevens, who made Leila fall asleep 2x in Geo, plus Stubbs, the dude whose armpit kept showing dark stains and has an annoying voice and finally our constantly changing English teachers Puig [she had a strong Indian/whatever accent and got fired 'cause she taught bad] and Giambuzzi [we finally had Waller's husband after those failures]. Maths chronicles were the best though 'cause we always got in trouble but I won't go into detail 'cause my trio started making Memory Books of times since Year 7 and I don't want this entry to be TOO long. I still have them. Oh yes, I had a major crush on Dkun aka D*niaji and he knew 'cause of a stupid prank Valentine me and Leila did. The entire Year knew -__-;; I became friends with Leila's 3 admirers Luay, Salim and Abdulrahman [Salim left just this Year 12 term 3] - yeah, they all had a crush on her, OK. I was closest with Abdulrahman who I started calling Abdy, and we even began talking on the phone together [maximum 2 hours] and chatting loads. He helped me concerning Dkun problems a lot and was such a great pal. I stopped being friends with Luay after a while 'cause we kept fighting and same with Salim too. I had a crush on Abdy for a month in February. Oh yes, I got lots of detentions from Lardo too (Y) That's all for Year 8, there's just too much to type about that I wish I can tell all of you but I can't.

Year 9
This year was the awesomest I think 'cause we only had happy memories and not annoying ones like last year. I don't remember any sucky teachers. There was Ripton. It was in his Geography class that I learnt what a condom was. I made my notebook very colourful and pretty and he once called Rula a goat which made her hate him a lot. For English we had West, who we proclaimed as The Living Dead 'cause he was in the border of life and death. His lessons were our funeral but me and Leila sat at the back and always threw things to the front of the class and annoyed each other loads by dropping books and stationery to the ground and we never got in trouble. I stopped liking Dkun in March or something and somewhere after that stopped communicating with Abdy. I really forgot how. I met Fajar in February but that's not part of school. By the way Sammy came to QIS this year and someone else I think but I forgot. There were like 13 people in our group and we were such a pact, just like Cania's group now, but we were a whole lot immature and noisier than them. Overall it was an awesome year.

Year 10
I started highschool and the first bad thing about it was that Mizah, Leila, Jana, Khuloud and Amanda left QIS. I was devastated but thankful that Sammy, Madusa and Jenny were still around. This year I became friends with Saba, Iman and Shaza but more distant from Rula 'cause she hung out with the intellectual people, aka Majd's people. I also started to treasure home life [you know, Sekompond stuff] than school life 'cause it just wasn't the same as junior high. Unfortunately Jenny moved somewhere in Term 1 or Term 2. I became closer to Sammy at this stage, and we started calling each other Mother and Daughter and then Cania and Fajar arrived into the family. English with Eyre was the best thing that ever happened to me in lessons [yes it beat the unique classes from junior high] 'cause I just couldn't stop laughing and enjoying myself. Me and Rula were maniacs and always made jokes and the entire class always humour together. However it wasn't yet fun as like in Year 11. I remember in October I had the stairs incident, do you remember it Hamzah? I tripped on the stairs 'cause of my slippery shoes and he was next to me and a teacher was behind me and when she left Hamzah couldn't stop laughing. I started having a crush on him after a while but it was still immature. Year 10 school life was OK 'cause the people weren't as exciting but nothing bad ever happened, I think. Some of us also started going to IT2 on 2nd breaks and I think those 15 minutes of every school day were the happiest I had in school, with my home friends I mean. Oh I almost forgot, me, Matar, Hamzah, Dhe3 and Dhia joined German [and I will not talk about how Eichoefer is an idiot teacher with alien fashion style and kept boring our French class to tears] and that was the most awesome after-school activity I've ever been to in QIS, I think. We ate food and played games and there was Syamsul LOL. Ah, sad she left the next year. Or not.

Year 11
If you wanna read about my Year 11 life I have a blog of it, you know. It was the worst year of my life I kept admitting and now as I am in Year 12/graduated I disagree and agree. Agree because I was a helpless emo and stopped telling my problems to people and was literally sad everyday 'cause I kept fighting with Hamzah [who became my 1st love and I am not afraid to say that 'cause he's just my best friend now and I have a crush on someone else thank you] and disagree because I had beautiful memories when I wasn't fighting with him and ESPECIALLY with Fajar. But that's not part of school. School was a good witness for lots of things though. 'Specially IT2 sessions. I remember when Hamzah came in the class and gave me a poem drawing, do you remember? and I nearly cried. IT2 was my sanctuary. We were always in there playing games or just talking about anything. Me, Cania, Fajar, Hamzah and Umar were the regulars, but Umar had nothing to do with our fun. Turkey was in charge so we could do whatever we want. Oh how joyous those moments were. We also joined Robotics after me, Matar, Hamzah and Afif did like 1 or 2 lessons of Spanish LOL. English lessons got a lot more fun 'specially with our poetry mockery and Animal Farm jokes but I then found out Rula was leaving in Year 12 D: I gave Eyre a drawing on our last lesson but it was rushed and therefore ugly. I wonder if he still has it. Woman version of Eyre was my French teacher and she gave me and Shaza a detention padahal I was being honest and that totally pissed me off. For Geo we had Green and our lessons with him were my 2nd favourite but sadly he had to go in Term 2 or something and I nearly cried. Well, that's all I really wanna say about Year 11. I was still a genius.

Year 12
Well I made this blog when I started Year 12 so you obviously know what my school life is like. I shall type about my last 3 weeks of highschool and QIS though.

First of all me and Fajar never made up in those 3 weeks. I tried talking to him 2x on the first week but he wouldn't respond so I left him alone. In the beginning of the 3rd week however I tried settling things down by chatting with him one night but it went nowhere, then the next night we had the longest chat ever that went to The End. So yeah, we're not friends anymore and I was sad but I learnt to overcome it, a bit. I'm gonna make an entry about it later 'cause I'm itching to.
We had 1 photography activity and it was with Dhe3, Carisa and Hamzah [of course]. I forgot what our subject was but we had loads of fun and laughter. I forgot what about, though, as usual. I also had 2 primary activities in which Dhea didn't attend both so it was just me and Hamzah. This time it was indoors 'cause it was just too hot outside. The 1st time I just played with blocks and stuff with the kids and Hamzah was cooking with Riko LOL. The 2nd time we were bored of the toys so after playing a bit with the kids we sat down across each other on the kiddy chairs and as I was drawing and he was doing whatever we talked the entire time. We talked about secrets and definitely the future aka our difference in time zones and goals and stuffs and it had a sad aura to it but it was a fun and comfortable conversation. I think once he talked about how if he gets a scholarship to the US or was it become a musician? then I'll get to see him perform or something. I was totally sad about the separation idea and when I said that we have to meet again in the future, OK and Hamzah said of course we will [or something along those lines] I don't know how but I just had this gut feeling that I can believe him so I didn't question anymore. Aku percaya kamuu~ (8)
Since we already finished the syllabus in Term 2 classes were sort of free. Did I ever mention that I had to do a PPT with Fathy and we totally sucked? Well anyway lots of people were absent and therefore I sometimes was missing people to talk to -__-;;
In our last day of school I wore an annoying jacket vest thingy whatever and dreaded it. It wasn't that special or fun at all. In Chemistry we did one last titration and when we were done gathered a bit. Parry said we were an extreme pleasure to teach, of course. In the last 2 minutes I drew a picture for him [I only draw pictures to the teachers of my favourite lessons LOL] and everybody signed it (Y). Gonna miss Chemistry like hell. Last lesson we were given certificates in the Library and I got Miss Cartoon, how lame. I thought I was gonna get Miss Amazed but they changed it.
Aside from school, on the 24th of April I went to the Corniche for some person's separation thingy and I was hoping females would come but to my horror and a bit of delight, only the Isynas, Fajar and Fadhli came. Since I was the only girl I had limits aka not to spend too much time with the lads so when they went back to the picnic site I walked to the other side of the park to take pictures, alone, sigh. I met up with them as the sun set but Hamzah went away so I had no one to talk to. It was boring. IGCSE and accelerated people started taking Physics tutoring and that was a real disadvantage to me. I also began going to the gym but quit not long after.
I can't remember anything else.

Well I hope you were somehow amused by this entry, if you even read the entire thing. Thanks a lot if you do. QIS was a good school and I'm glad me and all my friends have been put there. I will terribly miss everything that's happened.
Don't ever hate school guys, when you're in my position later in life you'll be begging to stay. Make the most of it~

p.s. this entry was 2739 words long, no kidding.

I Will Smile.

Hello all,

it's been a while since I blogged huh? What, nearly a month [I set this entry date to 9th April though, but it's 2nd of May now] And the last entry was so depressing. Well now that I've changed concerning the Fajar factors, I don't think you'll find such pathetic content [about him] anymore.

Stuff That Happened In the Last Week of Term 2 [05-09 April]

Despite having problems concerning the boy mentioned up there, I managed to have a decent last week. There were no activities however T~T On the 8th of April it was the Talent Show was it? When I found out Umar wasn't playing I was so sad D: Some of the people were good especially Jana's sister and Salsa and Matar and Lavinia of course. On Thursday there was a Chemistry test but it didn't feel like a test at all - we even brought the paper home LOL. Eh, what else... can't remember.

On Tuesday something so embarassing happened. I mentioned it in the depressing entry but I wanna type it in detail now. It was after school and we were talkin about DBSK and I was fawning over -insert name here-. Then Dhe3 and Cania said that you can't compare DBSK with him. After that I spontaneously said 'Bs masih suka -insert name here-' [as in, fandom] and I looked straight ahead and found the dude looking back and we locked eyes for a bit and then I got EXTREMELY embarassed. But it was so funny. Matar and Indira were there too. I told them to go to the area where the person was standing on and I repeated the phrase and they told me that they could hear me PERFECTLY. Oh shit -___-;; Well, it was memorable xD

Ah, I think sometime in the week, Wednesday was it? Afterschool Hamzah was really angry. Very irate [if that word fits into this context]. He complained about so many things very seriously and stuff. Cania was there too. I gawked and all I said about his rant was 'Whoa Hamzah is sexy when he's angry' HAHAHAHAHAHA. Or did I say cool? Hmmmh. Yeah.

Well since the Isynas were going the next day I thought I should play outside with them and I did. It was only me, Fadhli, Umar and Hamzah. Well I was with Hamzah mostly of course but they stuck around. I showed them the kids' hideouts and they were really cool. When me and Hamzah went to Ms.Dagher's garden to take pics of flowers they even followed us LOLOL. Honestly I didn't ajak anyone to go out 'cause I'm solo when it comes to playing outside now. I told Hamzah the embarassing story before we had to part~ And that was it.

I already mentioned Thursday up there but something happened at night. When I went to DnF's to mingle with Matar I had a very good time despite feeling a tad lonely beforehand. We laughed at so many things 'til our stomachs hurted and we cried [did we?]. Dhea and Matar's arts were really good 8) I then actually went over to Fajar's to say sorry to him. Ah, I was really nervous and my heart was beating so fast. I rang his bell and he opened the door and I said sorry and selamat jalan and bla3. He smiled, you know. A teeth-showing smile. Well we talked for a few minutes and I said bye and we waved and the end. I thought all would be good. Hmmh. Kinda went downhill at night. That's all.

Oh and I have to admit, I was already missing the twins. XD

Let's Begin April...

Most of my pictures were blurry -__-;;

Well, so far my prayers haven't been answered. April is a total mess - hurt/sadness mixed with happiness here and there. At least I wasn't RAGING though. I find that worse. This entry talks about the more joyful things. Depressed one later.

I could've sworn there was something memorable in Chemistry on Wednesday the 1st but I can't remember anymore .__. I was talking to Hamzah after-school as usual and Fajar saw that and popped in next to him and then we finally had a casual talk - bet he was jealous. I was forced to go to Maths 'cause I suck at Chapter 10 and Griffin wanted me to be there. I sat on the same table with Haya, Lara and Ahmed Almeer, and he helped me with some of the questions. He's such a friendly guy. The ones that went home at 2 was only me and Umar *toeng. He was still inside the Masjid when I reached and didn't come out 'til the car came .__. Inside, I was already wearing my seatbelt and eating pizza; I watched Umar walk out of the gate when I saw this flick of white and Umar started bending down and bustling about. Then me and Tante Ita found out that his papers were flying due to the intense wind and I realised the flick of white was one of them. Since I was eating pizza it took me a while to run out of the car and chase his paper, but tante Ita beat me to it. Oh yeah, when one of the sheets was flying, Umar jumped a little to catch it and it was SO DAMN CUTE.

Thursday was major lol. In Physics there was some joke going around about somebody farting and even the windows were opened. In Chemistry we tried to pull the prank on Parry but he didn't fall for it at all! Yacout sat on the whoopee cushion and it BROKE and I laughed so hard even Jozali told him about it, mentioning my name. Abdellah used tape to fix it XD Then suddenly Akkad and Abbas started making farting noises with their ARMS and OMG you wouldn't believe how hard we ALL laughed. 'Cept Doniaji [he is immune to the class' stupidity]. And Fathy and Almeer, I think. I even cried 'cause of all that and laughed for more than 3 minutes. Ah, good times, good times. After school I had Badminton and it was so sepi o-o Some Yr12 dudes came in randomly to watch us and play a bit. I sucked and got tired easily and kept watching Hamzah's twin brother TEEHEE. That's basically it.

There was the Green Guitar on Friday but I no longer anticipated it; reasons can be found in the depressed entry [D.E.] next. Well in the morning at Aspire it awesomely rained and I loved it so much but I got really wet [and that sounds wrong]. Me and Indira walked together around the park and trespassed in the construction area of the extended lake *-* Umar with wet hair is kinda weird - Hamzah's too. At home I did lame lonely laptop stuff but at around 3 I went outside just to cool off. I also FINALLY rode a bike [it was tiring though]; for the past week I've been too chicken - I was afraid of falling... Haha.
GG was great! =D I had more fun than I expected, which wasn't much. Something extremely embarassing happened but that will also be put in the D.E. In the first few performances I just stood next to Cania and Indira and watched and furiously took pictures but when the unknown people came I stopped. I ate 3 pizzas and was able to converse with Hamzah 'cause he was behind us, despite him mentioning how he wasn't supposed to mingle. The Arab singer with the 'noodle hair' [as Fajar later said in the car] was horrible and I have no idea why his mates accepted him. I sometimes looked for aho-ushi even though we weren't talking. I was worried about praying so me, Cania and Hamzah decided to rush to the Masjid together - and it started raining! Some men at the gate told us about how women aren't allowed to pray in there but we did anyway. It was so dark and scary. We speed-walked back [and I was way faster than you OK Hamzah] but I got to enjoy the pouring water too. When we came back it was near the end and they FINALLY had good vocals. But a smaller audience. Overall it was a fun night and I thank Hamzah and Cania for mingling with me throughout (:
The car was really full. OK anyway after that me and Carisa went to my house and we had such a hilarious time. Mostly 'cause of Lovin' You, The Wonders of Eyes, US Presidents and Hamzah pictures. My body was aching and all the energy I carried drained out 'cause of it so when I went to DnF's I slept on the couch for a while before deciding to go home and fall into the bed. I haven't slept at 10pm in a looooong time. I woke up in the darkness and my stomach was dying so I traveled to the toilet, looked at my watch and found out it was 12:55AM. WHOAAA I ****TED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!

Saturday was awful. Just wait for the next entry if you wanna know the sheer misery I felt.

Let's End March Beautifully

Really funny things happened on Monday but I forgot already, of course. It was our last time doing Primary for this term and the weather was really nice and windy so my eyecandy was at its maximum potential. Me, Dhea and Hamzah walked to the Masjid together and had to wait for quite a long time there. Me and Hamzah [sorta?] were attracted to this dumped mattress and bounced on it LOLOL. Plus, when he stepped out of the Masjid sunlight suddenly shone on him and it was so funnay.
The Isyna parents were there so I couldn't talk with Hamzah like usual [he was sitting behind me]. I just listened to my iPod. Suddenly something appeared on my right and I found Hamzah's hand holding folded tissue. I took it and was literally dumbfounded [I had no idea what to do with it], but then realised I was supposed to open it and found a message inside. I wrote back and returned it to him. I could hear the sound of his pen scribbling away inside that extremely quiet car. I would get a bit surprised everytime the tissue pops out signaling reply xD We did it all in secrecy ;O

Sadly he started this a bit late so the tissue wasn't filled. Towards the end I wrote a last message and he did too, saying to 'blog this kay'. So I did =D I kept this sacred white cloth of course. When I was doing that tissue-passing I remembered that last year we [OMG I'M HAVING SUCH TROUBLE TYPING THIS UP 'CAUSE IM LISTENING TO DBSK LOL] used my scrap paper to send messages to each other in Tante Lisna's car - the stupid thing was we sat BESIDE EACH OTHER XD. When I got home I rummaged through my Memory Box and found that 1-year-old paper. Shockingly, we did that on the 18th of March 2008 0.0 And now we do another one [shorter but more bizzare] on the 30th of March 2009! Tres cool. Too bad there won't be a 2010 ._.

Today was hilarious [well after-school wasn't amusing though]. Me and Jana kept laughing 'cause she made up stupid songs as we were doing questions. One of them's to do with insanity xD Oh yeah, before the lesson started we saw this ENORMOUS inflated beach-ball globe and I asked O'neil if I could play with it LOL. Then he told me to put it in the back of Lab 1 so me, Jana and Haya were all scrambling to touch that thing as we walked to Tech Block. I sang 'I got the whole world in my hands' and when Majd passed by she sang it too LOL. Chemistry had its funny times DUH but I never remember. Oh yeah, Head Boy is such a gentleman. When I wanted to enter the Maths class, he who was in front of me noticed that so he stood next to the door allowing me to go inside first. SUCH A GENTLEMAN.

At home I realised I had no homework for tomorrow ['cept Maths but there's a point in free lesson right?] so I just did my typical laptop drill. I didn't go online in MSN for some reason so Fajar decided to look for me in Facebook and started a chat. Oh my God, it was the most dramatic chat we've had this month [and we did the entire thing in Facebook]. It involved hatred, caps lock, care, cool and happiness. Ah, I don't wanna go into more details 'cause Fajar hates it when I reveal our conversations [Has strong urge to copy+paste parts but is resisting]. He always uses Hamzah as a way to prove his points, you know? Hamzah I think you already know that, haha.
However, that log meant nearly everything to me from this month T^T Yeah, March had nothin' special. My highest chat log is only 3.27MB [with Hamzah] then 2.96 [with Carisa] then 2.50 [with Cania] then 1.82 [with Fajar] and usually it's 6MB! Ugh. Basically I felt lonely online, but in real life I was hardly like that. This was the month I started to love DBSK! 8D And undergo fangirling overload of it. Plus I think I stopped being so sentimental and negative for sure 0.0 Isn't that great? In March's 1st entry I prayed to God it will be happier and I guess it is! Despite the silent-distance of course... But I learnt to overcome it anyway. Alhamdulillah~

Let's welcome April!
Last year's was one of the best months of 2008 I've ever had so I hope this year is too... Amin.

Smile & Laugh

AAAAAAAA LOOK AT CHANGMIN YA YA? LOOK AT HIM *_______* He's the one in the inner corners of all 4 pictures... HE'S SO CUTE WITH A HAT! From an interview I learnt that his favourite accessory is a hat.. GYAAA! Even though he does look better in videos than pictures but still... I love you Changmin lalala~
IMAGE CREDIT!

Well, the reason I haven't been blogging properly is 'cause I'm hardly in the mood anymore so yes, there is no International Award entry I'm afraid to say. 'Sides, there's not much to talk about either... Abid's group had all the fun -__-;;

Last Wednesday I had music club, in the Masjid I talked with Hamzah from like 2:15 to 2:45pm, waiting for Om Hanif. We talked about teachers and comics and other stuff, it feels so good to be able to talk to a guy like that :) I thought it was a good sort of 'parting' memory 'cause the next day I had IA. In the car however I surprisingly had to sit next to Fajar and it felt dreadful. You know what, I was drawing a picture of him 'cause he asked abt it last last Sunday and I rushed to finish it so I can show him before I left the car... But the plan backfired, I couldn't let out the voice to say, 'I drew you, wanna see?' Padahal if I did things would be different.

Changmin with glasses 8D Megane ouji; Glasses prince ;D

This week had more ups than downs and I'm really glad to know that I am fine without Fajar, but not necessarily better off. The circumstances may vary for him though and according to my analysis I think he is better off. Anyhow funny stuff happened in school hours but I honestly can't remember anything 'cause I have a bad memory... But Yacout is so gullible and hilarious xD School was always happy and laughable for me but when I get home my mood always switches to a nostalgic, sentimental one. D: Farah's birthday was on Tuesday, it was biasa2 aja to me and I enjoyed watching you-know-who, hehe. I found out that they played cards after I left and got pissed off at ahoushi who seemingly showed off. Hurray for videos.

HAHAHA WTF IS YOOCHUN [2nd from left] AND CHANGMIN'S HAIRCUT HAHA srsly why can't Changmin keep his hair in ONE STYLE already?! I like his hair not too short [like how it is now] and not too long [like up there and years ago].

Today I had a plan, which was to show Fajar the drawing I did of him. I mean, what have I got to lose? The script was planned out and all I had to do was find the chance to walk up to him - and there was one right after school, where me and Dhe3 noticed how that boy was standing all alone whereas Umar was mingling with schoolmates. Honestly, I liked seeing him alone. It was the perfect chance you know, but apparently my bag was left in Lab 1 'cause I was supposed to have a test at 1pm but due to the boys' wailing Parry changed it to tomorrow, so he just stood there with no one for 15 minutes, padahal I could've been there beside him. My mom told me I was going home with him and I was like Oh shit, I really didn't want to. In the car Tante Siwi kept offering me food... pizza... and I felt really uncomfortable 'cause I constantly rejected... Don't ask. I had another plan at that moment, which was to sms Fajar 'I drew a picture of you, wanna see?' and see what he replies. But after I finished typing it and clicked his name, I paused before pressing Send. For 5 seconds... 10 seconds... Well, you guessed it, I decided not to. I left the car saying Makasih Tante, Iwan, Fajar, but I'm sure he didn't hear 'cause he was listening to music.

OH HAEY LOOK Jaejoong is wearing a shirt with MY NAME on it LOLZ.

I was meant to be studying for Chemistry but I watched Exploration of the Human Body feat. DBSK instead [God it was so funny and Changmin made me melt], though right when I suddenly had the will to open my books, which was at uhh, 10? my Dad started to lecture me and ordered me to sit on the dining table. He asked this and that and then it came to the time when I told him I had problems... I wouldn't tell him what, so he decided to call my Mom over and God, it was like 10:15... I didn't wanna talk about this at all, let alone at 10:15. Well, you guessed it again, I finally told my parents about my friendship problems with Fajar... not all the stories, just the sort of basic idea and a bit of what happened in our what, 17th silent distance? It felt weird telling my parents something like that for the first time in my life but the only unreassuring thing they did was call Fajar a kid, which my dad kept lightly chuckling at. Well I can't blame them, everyone thinks he's a kid except me. I know him better than everyone else *confident*. Don't know about now though 'cause his Facebook status is like 'I have lost myself. This isn't the Me that you know. he's somewhere else', what the fak does that mean?

HAHAHHA GA COCOK BANGET HAHA

Well tomorrow I've got plans which I don't know will apply to me or not so let's just see. I also wanna try talking to Fajar again... he's got to see the drawing, seriously. I think it's nice. So well, I hope tomorrow brings no pain and maybe no more fights. Amin. Whatever reply I get from him determines whether I shall leave him forever or stay a lot longer...

My eyes hurt from all that crying

Unfathomable Despair

-26 April 2008-

|× Bii-Esh™ :-: fajar if u wer ther n u saw me crying wt wud u do
[ Trent Harrison] : try t make u smile

I totally stole the title from Fajar's PM who obviously got it from a text - he can't possibly find or learn a word like 'unfathomable' by himself can he? Well anyway Friday's entry [which I will type about later] will explain why I'm not happy anymore so I'll go straight into the descriptions of misery and rage.

[ Beware Cania ] Yesterday I confronted effin' Griffin [Iffin'] with my FINISHED HOMEWORK which I honestly FORGOT TO HAND IN on Wednesday but guess what? HE GAVE ME A BLOODY DETENTION. FOR FORGETTING TO HAND IN MY BOOK! EVEN WHEN IT'S FUCKING FINISHED! WHAT KINDA RUTHLESS TEACHER IS HE?! It's such an imbecilic reason! And you know, Shaza who did NOT hand in her book either PLUS hardly did ANY of the questions, DIDN'T GET A DETENTION AT ALL. Dude, I don't care if I get a detention or not - I care about how he gave one to me for a stupid reason yet DIDN'T give one to someone who totally DESERVED it! I half stuck out my middle finger at Shaza and I even said the F word 2x in class. Blame my period -___- Anyway, Iffin' has something against me. I BET IT'S 'CAUSE I SAID I HATED HIM.

[ OK Cania it's safe now ] At 2nd break I was totally grudging Shaza who said she'll never forget what I did to her. IA was boring and Scoots couldn't shut up just like Griffin. The car trip home was very amusing though 'cause Abid joined us and he had loads of hilarious stories from IA and normal school days which we all laughed and commented at of course. Once when we were talking about making a band, Dhea suggested Remi as Umar's violin player member and Abid said something which made Umar smirk and say 'I'm too cool' and I was like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~ And and and once he tugged on his collar too like Justin Timberlake and all those sexy people you know? OH SO AWESOME.

Hometime was dead. It was the most boring 9 hours [I slept at 12] I've ever had in 2009, srsly. I didn't have any h/w either. Matar wasn't online. I wanted to draw but didn't. I kept staring at Fajar's MSN thinking of how much we'd chat if we got over this mess. I put all my faith in God for both of us to overcome this, amin Ya Robbal Al Amin.

Today, Monday. It was better. I got a 44% for my Chemistry test a.k.a. an E. It's still a passing grade in AS but NOT for Universities, which like C's and above. Hey Colorado, still want me? Parry's planning a re-test next Tuesday 'cause most of us sucked, great. I was sleepy up until breaktime where I ate noodles. O'neil was stupider in today's lesson than usual 'cause it's so obvious he didn't know how to explain the page we read about. And the school's internet is still slow. And Maths is hideously stressing and confusing - Iffin's rushing it. OK you all probably wonder why I called today better.

Basically because of after school Primary, of course. It's always guaranteed as the happiest hour of my week unless anything better happens like Friday's 4-hour CC thing. It was me and Hamzah only today 'cause Dhea vamoosed to Hikmah's. Riko let her hair down and she looked older and Anime. Oh yeah I forgot to mention how there's this stupid packet of biscuits that's been appearing everywhere I go, called Shots. And they taste AWFUL. But they're everywhere, and people eat them. So, I discovered that Umar was rehearsing for the Talent Show at the drum shed and I was so disappointed when we went to the BB court instead of the usual patch of grass in front of the shed. But then we transferred ourselves to that place and I was flying. I expressed every single fangirling and moaning of mine to Hamzah who was like 'You do know I'm his twin right? It's so VAGUE'. I don't get the vague part.

When we went to get stuff from the shed Hamzah opened the door and I saw Adam who looked at me and said Hello. Man it's been ages since you spoke to me. Anyhow the session was fun as usual 'cause me and Hamzah always laugh and it's nice to see his smiling face you know =D Umair and Hariz were like playing outside so I got to look at him a lot of times TEEEHEEEE. Hamzah found a hideous worm just like the one in Al-Khor and we stared at it several times that hour. But when the kids played football I kept watching the little bug just incase... and then Kai squished it. IT WAS SO DISGUSTING!!!!!!! The worm's skin got destroyed and I saw its brown solid insides HIHH. Hamzah became a goalkeeper har har.

So, we were at the Masjid waiting for the twins to finish praying, right, and suddenly when I looked at the gate Umar had his hands in his pockets and he walked out SO. EFFINLY. HOT. Like a like a like a - I DON'T KNOW. It was just so Umar. And so cool. I died. And Hamzah looked like a dweeb behind him - IM JOKING. Anyway in the car I peacefully listened to music and I looked at the mirror to get a view of Umair who was behind me but instead caught eyes with Hamzah who was like 'What?' or something with his trademark expression and I wanted to scowl at him 'cause my target was Umar not you man. Towards the end of the ride I saw something soo cute x] Anyway hometime was dead yet again. I have a long Maths h/w but I wanted to blog and do nothing today so I did. Well, I spent more than an hour reading old chat logs with Fajar and a little bit with Hamzah too. When I read through them I realised the fact that me and Fajar fought about nearly the same thing back in 2008 and now, 2009. We haven't changed any of it at all and I don't know what that means. I could've cried when I read the utterly sweet things he said; and you know, I felt like that chat log happened to me right then and there, not a year or 6 months ago or something. When I read the happy parts it made me feel like nothing's wrong with us but when I looked at Fajar's MSN I snapped back to reality and realised that was all in the past. I was living in those memories.

He modified his nick so that he's underneath me again, I'm so happy 'cause when he made it purple last Saturday he was like.. waaaay down, above Abid or something. It's a stupid thing to be happy about but I WAS HAPPY SO WHO CARES. He changed his PM to '... and unfanthomable despair' which is wrong 'cause it's unfathomable. It made me wonder what he was talking about though.. He also changed his nick to 'T r e n t of Intense Hatred' and that scared the LIVING SHIT out of me, 'cause who could he be talking about? T___T I hate him, he never listens to me and always [did you know that always is a blaming word?] inferiorises himself and can sometimes totally ignore me and forgets who I am and often brings up issues at the wrong time which causes silent distances like this but I am his only best friend and he's my best friend too, somebody so important whom I miss terribly and it's hard to not care about him and I know I'm not supposed to let one person be the 'cause of all my misery but I can be happy just like how I showed you all above with the Hamzah stuff, it's just that I choose to walk like this right now.

Well that was the 1st 2 days of March, not very promising I know, but well, February turned out pretty nice and I thank Allah, alhamdulillah. Can You make March happier for me? Amin.

1234

There's only one way two say three words four you : I love you
Plain White T's - 1234 [ it's such a cute, feel-good song :) ]

Well anyway this entry is basically about school from the 23rd to the 25th. It was a very happy week but unfortunately nothing special enough and out-of-the-ordinary happened to be listed here. All I remembered was that Parry threw another test tube at Yacout and this time it hit the wall and all the bits of glass fell into into innocent Abdulrahman [who I used to call Abdy]'s bag and he spent some time clearing it all up xD Me and Hamzah had Primary as usual and in Photography club we did a lamez topic: Doubles then me and Carisa stalked someone HAHA. Everyday's 12:45pm-1pm session were very joyous too for I mingled with Fajar yayayay :D He talked about braces and kept forgetting to bring his phone's USB cable -__- The Parisians returned on Wednesday and Farah made a large deal out of the prank she did on Fajar and to be honest it annoyed the hell out of me. In Music club I talked with Fajar and Khalid for 15 minutes or so then resided with the girls - there was Arif and Adam. In the end when I was walking with Hamzah with Fajar and Umar in the front and Khalid much further something very interesting happened 0.0 But it's confidential ;D Someone was also being very cold to me, but it's been like that since the start of the week ._.

Well that's it, short eh? I lived in all those 3 days though.

O'Neil wrote this LOL. Do you get it?

LOLstuff

LOL I was trying on my friend's high heels.

Greetings all~ Despite Fajar problems which are supposed to be over by now only due to my cowardiceness and late processing I haven't settled it yet, I had a funny week. They can't really be described chronologically so here goes separate paragraphs...

OK so I remember it was Physics and O'Neil was like 'We're gonna learn about Maxwell's Theory' or something like that and suddenly Moh. Akkad started singing 'Maxwell House' and doing these waving hand gestures and it was SOOOOO DAMN FUNNY and I wanted to laugh so hard but I couldn't because I'd be the only one so all I did was smile to myself; he kept SINGING IT ALL LESSON too! XD Only those who know the commercial would start ROFLing over this like Carisa.

Another Physics thing; we're learning about the Doppler effect you see, and it's when you hear cars zoom past you and it goes 'NGEEEEEEEEEONG', you know? So anyway, O'Neil showed us videos about that term and everytime the video wanted to show how it sounds like all the boys kept going 'NGEEEEEEEEEEEEONG' and oh my God I kept LAUGHING until I cried. Even when the teacher was explaining they kept making that stupid SFX. xD Hilarious. Oh yeah, if you wanna watch the amusing video about it [which includes random cows] and laugh, go here.

Yesterday in Photography it was only me, Carisa and Hamzah so we went all around school to take pictures of nature, when we got to that volleyball field place Hamzah said 'Ooh grass!' in a non-mocking and ridiculous dumbfounded tone [he was literally oohing] and I burst out LAUGHING and cried 'cause God, it was hilarious. Hamzah was being serious so he didn't get it, and Carisa was too far away to hear. Then we moved on to the Year 3 & 4 playground and took pics of bushes and suddenly Hamzah said 'Ooh a spiderweb!' and 'I hate spiders!' AND THIS TIME CARISA HEARD IT TOO SO WE WERE BOTH BWAAAAAAHHAHAHAAHAHAAing XDXDXD SO FUNNAAAY!

It was the end of Maths and me, Lara and Shaza were the last to leave, so effin Griffin called out 'Have a nice weekend girls' and Lara was like 'You too Sir' or something like that and then I said to her 'Lara I can't believe you're bothered to say that, I hate him!' and the thing is we were JUST OUT THE DOOR when I remarked that so Shaza and Lara were like 'SYANIA HE HEARD!!!' and I went 'So what if he knows I hate him?' LOL. You can't be so sure he heard though, 'cause he's quite deaf you see. And what's he gonna do about it, give me detention?

Oh yeah in that tedious lesson I randomly scratched Shaza's book right and after 5 minutes she finally noticed and tipex-ed it and we started snickering. Then effin Griffin's I-hear-laughter-which-isn't-allowed-in-my-boring-and-quiet-class radar turned on so he went over our desk and saw the tipexness and he grinned and said 'What's this? Frustration?' and I was like PFFT IDIH SOK LUCU AMET SIH and after he left me and Shaza were like 'He's trying to be funny but fail' and 'He's such a stalker'.

In the fun lesson we call Chemistry, we were doing an experiment and Yacout was looking for a boiling tube but he couldn't find one in the rack so Parry was like 'Mohamed, here!' and in a quick flash I heard a CRASH and I looked at the floor to see a BROKEN BOILING TUBE which I realised Parry THREW at Yacout to catch but he failed. Then he was like 'Sir you were too fast' or something like that and Parry went 'It's your fault for having slow reflex, now how much should we charge him?' and Fathy said 'QR120' and Yacout kept complaining and Parry kept blaming and I just wanted to LOL at all that.

Music club wasn't as fun as last week so I shall go bla and say that after I prayed Carisa told me Hamzah handed the keyboard over to my custody and I was like WHAT HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO A GIRL? and rage rushed in me, but in the end Carisa wanted to bring it in order to improve her upper muscles or something so I carried her guitar and Cania's stuff -___-;; [wow that was a long sentence] I then got a phone call and saw the name UMAR and I was gonna faint but I picked it up and he urged me to stay at school 'cause I'm carrying the keyboard so just wait at the gate OK and bla3 concern stuff and when I hung up I went FAAAAAAAINT 'cause hello, it was UMAR?!? And who knew he could say such nice stuff like that? I was literally flying. But then when I went home and told Hamzah he said that... it was HIM. What shattered dreams I had, it was too good to be true. But but but ... Hamzah's voice was cool.

In the car we listened to music as usual and when I turned on Your Guardian Angel Umar started singing those high parts and it was SOOOOO EPIC FAIL so I couldn't help but to grin 'cause seriously... SO FAIL! I can't believe he wasn't embarassed doing that in front of me.

OK I had fun typing all that, the next entry I can assure you will be less delightful HAHA.

Jealousy... and Hatred

Oh jealousy, look what you've done, you got a hold of him, you made him become;
You rip apart his insides, you tear apart his whole life, you take the best of him...
Don't you know how much potential is inside of you?

I slept for 10 minutes in Physics, ICT and Maths today HAHA. It was funny 'cause O'neil and Griffin didn't notice me at all. Peachey saw me and woke me up but she didn't really mind. In the free lesson I listened to music loudly and just put my head on my arms and slept for the entire hour. It was so hard trying to open my eyes again 'cause they were glued together. We practised for the Mental Maths thing and I was the 3rd last person standing.

After school I started to wake up 'cause there was Primary. Fajar and Khalid told us this stupid P.E. story of theirs of Fajar poking a guy's eyeball and somebody's pants ripping and I reminded ahoushi of his promise yesterday. He was supposed to travel to the car as told by Iwan but he told him to go first and instead stayed behind to talk to me; I was glad he kept his word and touched by his action. Primary was hot and watching Riko is amusing. The kids wouldn't listen to the teacher so he said 'I feel like swearing and throwing these children to the wall', then me and Hamzah looked at each other and started laughing XD So funnay. In the car we ate pizza and listened to Melee.

Hometime was a wreck and I feel really guilty 'cause everything that happened was 60% my fault and shoot me, but I hardly admit I'm wrong in anything [stubborn banget sih] so this is sincere. This is also definitely the first time I really wanna go back into time and fix things. I shouldn't have done it. I shouldn't have, but what did I know? I like telling things to people, specially happy stuff. I made an oath and apologised, I don't know if I'm forgiven; now all I have to do is wait, really, and pray. Ya Allah please don't let this drag on. I really want my Sunday back, and his mood to restore, 'cause I hate yearning. Amin.

One thing I really don't get though, why the jealousy and hatred?

You Are

We're friends forever

OK it's official I will not type about the 5th & 6th of February simply because I can has photos and a memory and uhh I ain't bothered to type about a 10 days ago. 'Tis sad, 'cause they were awesome.

Today was a happy day, seriously. Nothing was wrong [well cept in ICT] and it hasn't been like this in a long time so I'm utterly grateful. I was sleepy the entire school day though.
Thankfully enough Shaza didn't bug me about the villaggio thing, she's 16 for God's sake so why would she bring it up anyway. It was time for Maths, Griffin was gonna give our marks and I stepped out the registration class saying 'I don't care if I get a D' to my friends and guess what? When I looked at my test paper I saw a big D on it.
Talk about irony. -___-;; I should've said 'I dont care if I get an A' HAHA. Well it's the destiny and I really don't care [even if my classmates got B's and above]. Instead, I could've performed Sujud Syukur knowing we're missing our 2nd period of Maths due to a Uni Fair. An entire hour of Maths gone! :D
*Cania don't read* Well in free lesson I finished off my ICT essay only to find we have 2 more to do for next Monday. Fuck ICT, curse its shitty essays, I don't even learn any crap in that cunt of a subject. What a way to ruin my long weekend, damn her. I wish to drop or better yet fail it. Anyway this is supposed to be a happy day, so put that aside.
*OK you can read again* All day I kept watching people holding roses and I sort of wished Fajar bought me one 'cause he wanted to but changed his mind, damn you man. There was a Physics test and I finished it in the first 30 minutes so guess what [I love guessing games], I slept for the rest of the hour :D It was awesome. My first time sleeping in class properly.
After school I got out the class too early so nobody was there. Since I was still half-awake, I just sat down against the pole and attempted to doze again, head on my bag. I started hearing my friends coming but they didn't nudge me so I kept at it. I was nearly asleep when suddenly someone poked my shoulder and a distinct voice said 'Why are you being emo' and I gazed up and saw Fajar. Thanks man.
He was holding a familiar-looking paper... OMG it was the drawing I wanted to secretly send to Hamzah o___O;; He and I discussed about it for a while [some Yr12 guy I think was Luay gave it to Khalid but he gave it to Fajar], me panicking and constantly trying to grab it from him [that boy wouldn't let it go] but Umar got the better of me and he pointed the Periodic Table-enveloped drawing towards the sun in an attempt to make out the content - 'It's a drawing... He's giving her chocolate?' or something like that. Hamzah was standing right next to him -__-;; So I made Fajar give it to Hamzah. He started tearing it open, stupidly not knowing how just because the sides are glued together, but people were looking - I could've sworn my face went hot - so I frantically told him not to see it in public.
Then all was random. I asked Andin about her roses, how suspicious of anonymous, and talked to Khalid about things too. I didn't feel like going to IA so me, Khalid, the Year 6s and Fadhli made our way to the back. Me and that 3rd Isyna conversed as if we've been doing so for a long time - I forgot what about but I think it's the rose thing. It felt nice (: In the car we had our music problems, the file manager is annoying -__-;; We commented of Salmaniye's Green Day freakness plus teased Fadhli of his Jason Mraz fan-ness and everyone sang along, srsly.

At home I felt free even though I has 2 essays and Chemistry write-up to do. Well whatever, I wanted to enjoy my day, which I did, 'cause I ate cow-eyed egg and spaghetti and watched America's Next Top Model and got loads of Facebook photo comments and when my parents talked about Universities I didn't get annoyed and Fajar said something that made me go YESSSSSSS! *evil grin* That idiot and me finally chatted for a long time again, from Asar-ish 'til his typical bedtime and I was touched *touched. Towards the evening we had some sort of dispute about looks which hopefully is sorted out now and at night we argued about this Doubutsu Uranai website, he didn't believe me and I kept talking bad about him so yeah. I knew it was over when he suddenly started typing in gibberish and people's names appeared in 'em so I laughed and laughed.
It's 10:30 and I still didn't do my h/w -___-;; Instead I'm just listening to music, chatting with Carisa and webcamming with Adam.

Yes, what a great day. :)

Tell me Why We will not go Down

Tell me why, does it have to be like this? When so many need somebody, we don't give a helping hand
You can burn our mosques and our homes and our schools but our spirit will never die. We will not go down, Ghaza tonight

THOSE SONGS ARE STUCK IN MY HEAD EEK.

Well anyway it was quite the hectic weekend. I shall explain each day in brief [my kind of brief is different than yours kthx].

Thursday
Uh seriously I was not fond of today. The weather was still awesomely stormy though but so was my insides. Parry came back and Chemistry continued its amusingness. I talked to Adam 3x today concerning Carisa's card and in 2nd break also about FAJAR. He is acting weird. I talked to that boy after school asking what's wrong and all that but he only shook his head and said no, grr. I was pissed off. I went to badminton and the participants decreased in number. I can has played with Carisa, Farhan, Indra and Kerry. Hamzah was the last man standing; the space sisters got to be with Umar and I was like.. D: Mau jugaaaaa. Bonnar put weird background musics and we laughed at 'em several times.
Hmmh, at home I sorted things out with ef ay jay ay ar. But to my surprise, he ignored me all night. It's hard having a good-looking person do that to you. Everyone was rehearsing for the Palestine thing so I felt far away, but I'm not complaining OK. I got really bored. Walked around everywhere frequently [it was cold but I liked it], Anty and Ocha especially o___O;; I didn't eat dinner either. 'Til 11 we stayed in the clubhouse doing stuff. Huh, it was quite boring basically.

Friday
Ohemgii today sucked tooo. I woke up at 10:30 after having a weird dream and my entire body ached, it felt like I fell on my behind. I was meant to go to villaggio with my school mates but I cancelled it 'cause I was moody x__x;; It got the better of me as usual. I ended up going to the Gladi Bersih though at around 5, 'cause well, I don't wanna miss anything.
Came early with Nisa and the Isynas. She went in but I stuck around in the hall admiring the posters and conversing with Dasa. Yeah I spent most of my time with that cute kid, if only he's a teenager I think we could be really good friends. I talked to Khalid a lot too *sparkles. And Hamzah, but that's normal. Weeell, what can I say, they rehearsed, I watched and recorded, mingled with others but at the end felt like sitting alone listening to music. Fajar ignored me agaaaain. Oh, and I got to meet Hamzah's new piano. He should give it a name.

Saturday
It's so weird how today was awesome but Fri and Thurs wasn't yet last week Saturday sucked but Fri and Thurs rocked o___O;; *still didn't type about it yet! How opposite, haha. Well anyway I've got videos and photos to explain everything so I'll just mention how I was standing around watching a performance when suddenly Fajar said hallo but I didn't know at who but he was standing next to me. Then he said look at all my pins and pointed at his pants and shoes. I just looked at him for a second and kept quiet being the un-bigheaded person I am. After that I took care of a stand with the boys and he was strangely enough sitting beside me watching me work whilst conversing with the lads and he brought up pin man to me. That's when I realised he's talking to me again, I knew he couldn't stand it HAHA *bighead now?
From then onwards, I had a lot of fun that I was able to capture even when my video memory got full and my camera battery was dying. Didn't expect anything good from this weekend at all, but I got 'em anyway, alhamdulillah. When the panitia were the only ones left me, Dhe3, Nisa, CC and the Isynas talked about school and all that stuff - well, I just listened, as usual. Oh and Umar was too preoccupied with his guitar. Leave his awesomeness be.
At home I felt too free to do my work, I have free lesson anyway. Got accepted to Colorado School of Mines and got chicken to tell my dad. He was too enthusiastic about it .__.;; I don't even really wanna go there. Put all that aside, I really did have a great day and I think I feel fine now. Fajar feels fine too so all is good (:

Semoga sekolah mendukung juga? Haha, amin! :D

I Created the Storm

With my awesome Storm ring.

Today was a great day! I'm glad I wasn't one of those people who hates Wednesdays. As usual, hometime was a turnover but I don't wanna talk about it.

Anyway in the morning I was stressing over my Maths test 'cause I didn't study last night, I was too busy working on an exercise 'til 12:30 AM [which flippin' Griffin doesn't wanna take in yet]. I slept in the car though 'cause I couldn't stand the sleepiness. In fact, in my free lesson I kept taking 5-minute dozes inbetween my last-hour revising. It felt greaaat.

The exam was bull. I know I lost more than 8 marks already. I skipped an entire question - the paper was just too 'challenging' or should I say difficult. I only blame 20% to myself though for not studying.

We had Physics in the library and it was great fun 'cause me and Jana talked about our future inventions. It was such a hilarious conversation, we're too imaginative and dreamy - but have high ambitions. When we grow up we want to be trillionaires and kill Jews and give 10% of our profits to save the hungry children of Ethiopia. Yeah.

Chemistry was pure freedom. God, it was so funny and fun [as usual]. I discovered that Parry got bitten by a cat and was sent to the hospital, so we had no teacher. The boys were wild, they played volleyball with a glove buddy and used chairs for the net. They scribbled on the whiteboard and jumped across tables, and only Ahmed Almeer was the responsible one who wrote down what we were supposed to be doing. They constantly went in and out of the room and hung in front of the window xD Speaking of window, when one of the guys opened the curtain they exclaimed at how the yellow the sky was and everyone rushed over to see. They started talking about aliens or something, but obviously it was a sandstorm. An epic one. Abdu suddenly appeared outside and jumped in from the window. Then the Heads felt responsible and decided to call up MacLeod and the dudes began going YESS YESS and pumping fists. We didn't do our work though. Us 3 girls chatted about TV shows instead for 30 minutes. Aweesome.

After school I blabbed to Hamzah and Cania about the lesson, and Parry. I wanted Fajar to hear but I think he got the impression I was aiming at Hamzah only. That boy really is acting strange now. Carisa showed me Iwan's card and it was soooooooooo damn hilarious, I kept laughing. Then I found out how everyone's going to Music Club so I decided to join too. Plus I'm free.

I hung around with Carisa first but she ended up in the trailer [Hamzah came over too for some odd reason] where it was so hot so I went outside and played with Indira, Ifa and Cania. Then I had an idea to go to the drumshed, I invited Cania and dragged Hamzah to join. It was packed so we went back. I loved the weather - the sky was brown and dark, it was really windy and everything felt great. Sort of.

Umar brought his electric guitar and I thought that I could've died of fangirl hearbeat attack. Well anyway me, Cania and Indira wanted to break open doors so we can go on the roof then found a rolling chair stranded in front of the Tech Block and brought it over to the yard. We wanted to jackass with it but I feared getting in trouble, oh why did I care. Even Iwan commented about that.

Soon I joined in with the boys and remembered that Umar 'cn play fall for you nyhehe' so I asked him to. He finally did towards the end and I watched and listened intently. Everybody left the area already 'cept Cania, Indira and Ifa who stuck around for a minute so it was just me and him after. It felt like he was [secondhand] serenading me and I savoured the precious moment, *dreamy sigh*. He didn't memorise the lyrics though and struggled to get the chords right but maybe he was just nervous :D Me and Cania waited for him to pack up then we walked to the Masjid, just me and the twins. I noticed that Fajar didn't wait for Umar, huh ._.

On the wild, sandy and windy way there I showed that guy a song and he actually asked me questions and bent over to see my mobile *dies*. Waiting for the car took forever so I just conversed with the 3 older Isynas. By the way I talked more with Khalid at school too :D

The car trip was freakishly quiet.