-26 April 2008-
|× Bii-Esh™ :-: fajar if u wer ther n u saw me crying wt wud u do
[ Trent Harrison] : try t make u smile
[ Trent Harrison] : try t make u smile
I totally stole the title from Fajar's PM who obviously got it from a text - he can't possibly find or learn a word like 'unfathomable' by himself can he? Well anyway Friday's entry [which I will type about later] will explain why I'm not happy anymore so I'll go straight into the descriptions of misery and rage.
[ Beware Cania ] Yesterday I confronted effin' Griffin [Iffin'] with my FINISHED HOMEWORK which I honestly FORGOT TO HAND IN on Wednesday but guess what? HE GAVE ME A BLOODY DETENTION. FOR FORGETTING TO HAND IN MY BOOK! EVEN WHEN IT'S FUCKING FINISHED! WHAT KINDA RUTHLESS TEACHER IS HE?! It's such an imbecilic reason! And you know, Shaza who did NOT hand in her book either PLUS hardly did ANY of the questions, DIDN'T GET A DETENTION AT ALL. Dude, I don't care if I get a detention or not - I care about how he gave one to me for a stupid reason yet DIDN'T give one to someone who totally DESERVED it! I half stuck out my middle finger at Shaza and I even said the F word 2x in class. Blame my period -___- Anyway, Iffin' has something against me. I BET IT'S 'CAUSE I SAID I HATED HIM.
[ OK Cania it's safe now ] At 2nd break I was totally grudging Shaza who said she'll never forget what I did to her. IA was boring and Scoots couldn't shut up just like Griffin. The car trip home was very amusing though 'cause Abid joined us and he had loads of hilarious stories from IA and normal school days which we all laughed and commented at of course. Once when we were talking about making a band, Dhea suggested Remi as Umar's violin player member and Abid said something which made Umar smirk and say 'I'm too cool' and I was like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~ And and and once he tugged on his collar too like Justin Timberlake and all those sexy people you know? OH SO AWESOME.
Hometime was dead. It was the most boring 9 hours [I slept at 12] I've ever had in 2009, srsly. I didn't have any h/w either. Matar wasn't online. I wanted to draw but didn't. I kept staring at Fajar's MSN thinking of how much we'd chat if we got over this mess. I put all my faith in God for both of us to overcome this, amin Ya Robbal Al Amin.
Today, Monday. It was better. I got a 44% for my Chemistry test a.k.a. an E. It's still a passing grade in AS but NOT for Universities, which like C's and above. Hey Colorado, still want me? Parry's planning a re-test next Tuesday 'cause most of us sucked, great. I was sleepy up until breaktime where I ate noodles. O'neil was stupider in today's lesson than usual 'cause it's so obvious he didn't know how to explain the page we read about. And the school's internet is still slow. And Maths is hideously stressing and confusing - Iffin's rushing it. OK you all probably wonder why I called today better.
Basically because of after school Primary, of course. It's always guaranteed as the happiest hour of my week unless anything better happens like Friday's 4-hour CC thing. It was me and Hamzah only today 'cause Dhea vamoosed to Hikmah's. Riko let her hair down and she looked older and Anime. Oh yeah I forgot to mention how there's this stupid packet of biscuits that's been appearing everywhere I go, called Shots. And they taste AWFUL. But they're everywhere, and people eat them. So, I discovered that Umar was rehearsing for the Talent Show at the drum shed and I was so disappointed when we went to the BB court instead of the usual patch of grass in front of the shed. But then we transferred ourselves to that place and I was flying. I expressed every single fangirling and moaning of mine to Hamzah who was like 'You do know I'm his twin right? It's so VAGUE'. I don't get the vague part.
When we went to get stuff from the shed Hamzah opened the door and I saw Adam who looked at me and said Hello. Man it's been ages since you spoke to me. Anyhow the session was fun as usual 'cause me and Hamzah always laugh and it's nice to see his smiling face you know =D Umair and Hariz were like playing outside so I got to look at him a lot of times TEEEHEEEE. Hamzah found a hideous worm just like the one in Al-Khor and we stared at it several times that hour. But when the kids played football I kept watching the little bug just incase... and then Kai squished it. IT WAS SO DISGUSTING!!!!!!! The worm's skin got destroyed and I saw its brown solid insides HIHH. Hamzah became a goalkeeper har har.
So, we were at the Masjid waiting for the twins to finish praying, right, and suddenly when I looked at the gate Umar had his hands in his pockets and he walked out SO. EFFINLY. HOT. Like a like a like a - I DON'T KNOW. It was just so Umar. And so cool. I died. And Hamzah looked like a dweeb behind him - IM JOKING. Anyway in the car I peacefully listened to music and I looked at the mirror to get a view of Umair who was behind me but instead caught eyes with Hamzah who was like 'What?' or something with his trademark expression and I wanted to scowl at him 'cause my target was Umar not you man. Towards the end of the ride I saw something soo cute x] Anyway hometime was dead yet again. I have a long Maths h/w but I wanted to blog and do nothing today so I did. Well, I spent more than an hour reading old chat logs with Fajar and a little bit with Hamzah too. When I read through them I realised the fact that me and Fajar fought about nearly the same thing back in 2008 and now, 2009. We haven't changed any of it at all and I don't know what that means. I could've cried when I read the utterly sweet things he said; and you know, I felt like that chat log happened to me right then and there, not a year or 6 months ago or something. When I read the happy parts it made me feel like nothing's wrong with us but when I looked at Fajar's MSN I snapped back to reality and realised that was all in the past. I was living in those memories.
He modified his nick so that he's underneath me again, I'm so happy 'cause when he made it purple last Saturday he was like.. waaaay down, above Abid or something. It's a stupid thing to be happy about but I WAS HAPPY SO WHO CARES. He changed his PM to '... and unfanthomable despair' which is wrong 'cause it's unfathomable. It made me wonder what he was talking about though.. He also changed his nick to 'T r e n t of Intense Hatred' and that scared the LIVING SHIT out of me, 'cause who could he be talking about? T___T I hate him, he never listens to me and always [did you know that always is a blaming word?] inferiorises himself and can sometimes totally ignore me and forgets who I am and often brings up issues at the wrong time which causes silent distances like this but I am his only best friend and he's my best friend too, somebody so important whom I miss terribly and it's hard to not care about him and I know I'm not supposed to let one person be the 'cause of all my misery but I can be happy just like how I showed you all above with the Hamzah stuff, it's just that I choose to walk like this right now.
Well that was the 1st 2 days of March, not very promising I know, but well, February turned out pretty nice and I thank Allah, alhamdulillah. Can You make March happier for me? Amin.
[ Beware Cania ] Yesterday I confronted effin' Griffin [Iffin'] with my FINISHED HOMEWORK which I honestly FORGOT TO HAND IN on Wednesday but guess what? HE GAVE ME A BLOODY DETENTION. FOR FORGETTING TO HAND IN MY BOOK! EVEN WHEN IT'S FUCKING FINISHED! WHAT KINDA RUTHLESS TEACHER IS HE?! It's such an imbecilic reason! And you know, Shaza who did NOT hand in her book either PLUS hardly did ANY of the questions, DIDN'T GET A DETENTION AT ALL. Dude, I don't care if I get a detention or not - I care about how he gave one to me for a stupid reason yet DIDN'T give one to someone who totally DESERVED it! I half stuck out my middle finger at Shaza and I even said the F word 2x in class. Blame my period -___- Anyway, Iffin' has something against me. I BET IT'S 'CAUSE I SAID I HATED HIM.
[ OK Cania it's safe now ] At 2nd break I was totally grudging Shaza who said she'll never forget what I did to her. IA was boring and Scoots couldn't shut up just like Griffin. The car trip home was very amusing though 'cause Abid joined us and he had loads of hilarious stories from IA and normal school days which we all laughed and commented at of course. Once when we were talking about making a band, Dhea suggested Remi as Umar's violin player member and Abid said something which made Umar smirk and say 'I'm too cool' and I was like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~ And and and once he tugged on his collar too like Justin Timberlake and all those sexy people you know? OH SO AWESOME.
Hometime was dead. It was the most boring 9 hours [I slept at 12] I've ever had in 2009, srsly. I didn't have any h/w either. Matar wasn't online. I wanted to draw but didn't. I kept staring at Fajar's MSN thinking of how much we'd chat if we got over this mess. I put all my faith in God for both of us to overcome this, amin Ya Robbal Al Amin.
Today, Monday. It was better. I got a 44% for my Chemistry test a.k.a. an E. It's still a passing grade in AS but NOT for Universities, which like C's and above. Hey Colorado, still want me? Parry's planning a re-test next Tuesday 'cause most of us sucked, great. I was sleepy up until breaktime where I ate noodles. O'neil was stupider in today's lesson than usual 'cause it's so obvious he didn't know how to explain the page we read about. And the school's internet is still slow. And Maths is hideously stressing and confusing - Iffin's rushing it. OK you all probably wonder why I called today better.
Basically because of after school Primary, of course. It's always guaranteed as the happiest hour of my week unless anything better happens like Friday's 4-hour CC thing. It was me and Hamzah only today 'cause Dhea vamoosed to Hikmah's. Riko let her hair down and she looked older and Anime. Oh yeah I forgot to mention how there's this stupid packet of biscuits that's been appearing everywhere I go, called Shots. And they taste AWFUL. But they're everywhere, and people eat them. So, I discovered that Umar was rehearsing for the Talent Show at the drum shed and I was so disappointed when we went to the BB court instead of the usual patch of grass in front of the shed. But then we transferred ourselves to that place and I was flying. I expressed every single fangirling and moaning of mine to Hamzah who was like 'You do know I'm his twin right? It's so VAGUE'. I don't get the vague part.
When we went to get stuff from the shed Hamzah opened the door and I saw Adam who looked at me and said Hello. Man it's been ages since you spoke to me. Anyhow the session was fun as usual 'cause me and Hamzah always laugh and it's nice to see his smiling face you know =D Umair and Hariz were like playing outside so I got to look at him a lot of times TEEEHEEEE. Hamzah found a hideous worm just like the one in Al-Khor and we stared at it several times that hour. But when the kids played football I kept watching the little bug just incase... and then Kai squished it. IT WAS SO DISGUSTING!!!!!!! The worm's skin got destroyed and I saw its brown solid insides HIHH. Hamzah became a goalkeeper har har.
So, we were at the Masjid waiting for the twins to finish praying, right, and suddenly when I looked at the gate Umar had his hands in his pockets and he walked out SO. EFFINLY. HOT. Like a like a like a - I DON'T KNOW. It was just so Umar. And so cool. I died. And Hamzah looked like a dweeb behind him - IM JOKING. Anyway in the car I peacefully listened to music and I looked at the mirror to get a view of Umair who was behind me but instead caught eyes with Hamzah who was like 'What?' or something with his trademark expression and I wanted to scowl at him 'cause my target was Umar not you man. Towards the end of the ride I saw something soo cute x] Anyway hometime was dead yet again. I have a long Maths h/w but I wanted to blog and do nothing today so I did. Well, I spent more than an hour reading old chat logs with Fajar and a little bit with Hamzah too. When I read through them I realised the fact that me and Fajar fought about nearly the same thing back in 2008 and now, 2009. We haven't changed any of it at all and I don't know what that means. I could've cried when I read the utterly sweet things he said; and you know, I felt like that chat log happened to me right then and there, not a year or 6 months ago or something. When I read the happy parts it made me feel like nothing's wrong with us but when I looked at Fajar's MSN I snapped back to reality and realised that was all in the past. I was living in those memories.
He modified his nick so that he's underneath me again, I'm so happy 'cause when he made it purple last Saturday he was like.. waaaay down, above Abid or something. It's a stupid thing to be happy about but I WAS HAPPY SO WHO CARES. He changed his PM to '... and unfanthomable despair' which is wrong 'cause it's unfathomable. It made me wonder what he was talking about though.. He also changed his nick to 'T r e n t of Intense Hatred' and that scared the LIVING SHIT out of me, 'cause who could he be talking about? T___T I hate him, he never listens to me and always [did you know that always is a blaming word?] inferiorises himself and can sometimes totally ignore me and forgets who I am and often brings up issues at the wrong time which causes silent distances like this but I am his only best friend and he's my best friend too, somebody so important whom I miss terribly and it's hard to not care about him and I know I'm not supposed to let one person be the 'cause of all my misery but I can be happy just like how I showed you all above with the Hamzah stuff, it's just that I choose to walk like this right now.
Well that was the 1st 2 days of March, not very promising I know, but well, February turned out pretty nice and I thank Allah, alhamdulillah. Can You make March happier for me? Amin.
2 replies:
GRIFFIN IS SO LAAAAME the way u talk about him. -______-
Ahh, u talk lots about Umaar. >D BWEHE. Then again u r the type who likes cool guys. :\ In your point of view.
Hopefully things shall brighten.
HAHAAH YES griffin IS lame. n evil.
yaaaaaa i like cool guys lalaa n i shall remain loyal t umar
thanks2 i hope so too
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