idk lol

I suddenly felt like blogging. Well, could've done this at Tumblr but I have 77 followers and I feel awkward typing about private things there [+ doing so in Indonesian isn't comfortable] ... so I went here. I reached the dorm at 12am-ish 'cause there were 3 other people in my bus and driving them to their living areas took 2 hours ): I discovered that we have 2 new suitemates and I haven't met them yet but saw one of them pass by my room. I wasn't sleepy yet so I stayed up 'til 6:40AM backtracking sites and fangirling as usual, then went to bed. I woke up at 2:30pm and I have my period so it's OK but because of that I feel really, really exhausted than I should be. Or maybe I already am? I just want to stay in bed but apparently I have to get these forms for my registration; you see, some of my classes clash so I need written permission from the professor to let me take the class at a different time. It's so ribet and it sucks sorting it alone but I have God to help me. I was meant to do that today but Maghrib's in 1 hour and I don't want to go out in the dark. I was also meant to go to the supermarket but like I said, I'm exhausted. And I don't wanna overuse my energy when tomorrow's the 1st day. I'm scared and nervous just like I was in the Fall semester. Why? Obvious. New semester = new classes = new people. In college you don't see the same people every term unless you organise your schedules together. Hopefully this term I can actually make real friends. Ever since I went to Qatar I've been learning more things about Islam and basically grew more religious alhamdulillah and I decided that I will be positive and hopeful this time. I have returned to the US as a better person, amin. I will try not to bitch about being lonely. I will try not to be depressed every single day. I will continue praying and hoping and trusting and seeking help from God. If any of you bothered reading this I wish you would support and pray a little for me too. It's still extremely hard to live here ):

p.s. I think I'll just stay in my room for the rest of the day