Jadenia & Regret

-its not just us man.. th ntire world's teenage population is struck with boredom too-
*Jadenia is a pun on th words 'jade'/'jaded' n 'insomnia'

u kno wt i noticed? im not th only one with a life thts getting more boring day by day *dsnt mean im bored of living ok >__>;; i realised fajar experiences th same too *kta mirip bgt sih x__x;;. n lots of ppl in dA - their journal titles r like 'im so bored' n bla3. n once iwan's pm went somethin along th lines of 'life's losing its taste' or wtever. sure i kno im a hopeless pessimist who dusnt believe in th phrase sweet 16 bt i ddnt kno things cud get THIS lame. its makin me luk forward for university. i wanna start somethin new - i mean i dnt wanna leave my friends here bt prhaps its just my surroundings thts gettin boring. maybe 7 years in qatar rele is too long n i need t find somewher else.. a campus.. a country with different climate.. stuff like tht. i kno ill miss qatar bt i rele think i shud go now [ th problem is i mite havta take yr13 T~T ]. i wish i can take someone with me too.. altho th possibilities r rele low .x.

school ws major yada [ got 2 marks away from an A in my maths exam dammit ] n after school ws briefly described by cania so i'll just talk abt therafter. nothin actually HAPPENED bt thers some sidenotes t tht 1st para i just typed.
below r some afta school pix *farhan luks cuute :D :-





*btw when i wnted t take a pic of adam n farhan n this other malay guy in music activity i ws like 'can i take a pic of u guys?' n adam ws like 'no its haram =p' n i went 'hey.. thts wt fajar says' n he sed 'yea he copied me!' [ in my head i ws like ckck fajar2 g original bgt sih kmu ] then they went sure2 bla3 n then adam goes 'hey y dont u get a nikon?' n then i sed 'bcuz.. i already bot this one' n then i tuk a pic n asked 'u like photography?' n he sed 'yea' n i sed 'wts ur camera' n he sed 'nikon' n then i sed 'ahh i wanna see ur stuff =D i mean pictures btw!' n th others went 'wuooo2'. he smiled thruout th convo. gyaa my first time talkin t adam!! he is sooo cute n nice x]]x]x]x] definitely ddnt disappoint my expectations. i wanna kno him a lot more khiekhe *gets shot*

in th ulumuddin mobile i listened t music so loudly ignorin th safety of my ears [ forgive me God, i do love my ears T-T ] bcuz fajar joined th car n he ws th one tht talkd n LAUGHED most n hearin his voice ws th last thing i wnted t do ther so i forced myself t turn th volume up. *hha pdhl sjk after school dah pngen dia ikutan kta -im inconsistent/plin-plan* when evryone else [ ther ws like:- icha, salman, salmaniye, fadhli, ocha, fajar, umar, khalid, me ] ws laughin abt some raspberry ice cream drippin down salmaniye's shirt tht lukd like blood i just stared out th window not botherin t kno wt ws goin on. he laughed so much n i got annoyed i even had schemes runnin in my head of throwin somethin at him when he gets off. yes, in tht car, i hated him. *th schemes backfired of course cz he ws dropped bfore me

at home i ws freakin bored as usual so i dcided t download namelessRO for th heck of it. im not playin it 'seriously' like anthem, as in - if im not rich then wtever, if i dnt have gud equips then wtever. i ws randomly in prontera when i saw a player calld 'l a m b o' who ws wearin incubus horns n i knew it ws fajar. i talkd t him n he ddnt kno who i ws bt in th end concluded tht its ocha; tho twards th end i think he knows its me. bt he's nt sensitive so well how can i assume tht?

i ddnt talk abt stuff like th usual me wud, bt he ws th same old fajar n tht made me glad inside. perhaps im so bored nowadays bcuz i dnt have contact with him anymore. amazingly we havent communicated [ excludin th bs2 in kempo ] in 10 days *record? ._.* so bein able t chat with him ther for just a lil bit anonymously made me feel better. he sed he's not happy he's goin t indo in december cz he'll be bored, bt he's bored in qatar too [ thts how i thot of this blog topic ]. i sed rnt u happy at school n he sed kinda n my brain calld him a liar cz i always see him smile with his friends. neverthless i got upset when he sed th 'kinda' n related with his boredom issues. i hate it when he's alone or down bt i hate tht he luks so better off with his other friends smiling widely - bt i still like seein it so i pray tht he'll be more cheerful than he is now.
so i guess in th end i cant hate him can i?