Salah Apa?

AHHH IM SO MESSED UP.

things happenin this week:-

int'l award thurs-sat
4 ict essays for next thurs which i cant do in weekendz cz of th above
ict e-portfolio for 9th of november
university fair on tues 6pm
afta school activities
magazine layouts t edit!!
chem test on thurs
phys test next sun
comic desperately needin t be continued
FRIENDSHIP ISSUES!!

ever since thursday i think things've gotten worse between me n *cough*
specially yesterday. i saw somethin tht made me so worried i still think abt it T~T
i tried yesterday n tday t set stuff straight bt i hadn't th chance.
days r goin by n december's near n tht means an ntire month will be wasted if i dnt take action.
i keep recallin all th memories n happy times we had. i hardly remember anythin bad tht we went thru. i keep prayin all th time for a gud thing t happen.

i believe this friendship went on for 3yrs [despite th 11 fights] bcuz it ws meant t last.

i dnt want it t end in this way, not with him hating me [ which i think he does naudzhubillah ] n forgettin all th memories we've had.. which wer a lot.
i gotta do something cz this time i can finally say its my fault it all happened.

Allah pls grant my prayers n help me. i dnt get wt i want much n this is like one of th top 5 most important things in my life. he is a gift from You and i kno it. i dnt wanna throw away somethin so special. i wish he won't throw me away either. he's th only person in th world who has treated me like im worth th sky.


edit *7pm:- BRSYUKUR KPD ALLAH. ALHAMDULILLAHI ROBBIL ALAMIN. GYAHAHAHA. HE READ THIS ENTRY [ i posted it in my PM ] N I KNEW BCUZ HE CHANGED HIS PM T STUFF ABT IT N SED 'im reading ur mind' N THEN N THEN N THEN. AH TAU DAH. happiness cant be described in words. HE'S BACK MAN!!!!! N THIS TIME ILL MAKE OUR FRIENDSHIP POSITIVE FOR ALL ETERNITY. I MEAN IT.

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