and today,

I laughed very hard today.
In Chemistry, they talked about cows and fart and I'm sensitive to that word so I hid my face in my arms and laughed long and quietly like I won't tomorrow. 'Cause well, I don't prefer to.

I got embarassed today.
I made the biggest and loudest mistake ever and dwelled on its possible impacts but found the entire incident amusing.

I am sad today.
It just gets worse every hour. I don't cry, I don't complain, I don't talk to anyone about it. I keep it to myself. Just me and my heart. Which is why sometimes I can feel the knife stab better. It's a bit painful. A bit.

I realised a despairing fact today.
It's April, isn't it? The 7th of April. I have around 3 more months left to live in this country; to add more little pieces of joy into my story. I hate the way time flies. It feels like it's February, one of the best months so far this year, but it's not, it's 2 months later than that... The end is nearing... and I hate that.

I missed someone today.
And the day before and the day before that. I will miss someone tomorrow too, and the day after and the day after that...It stings when I see that particular face and knowing I'll be apart from it and my other friends for an entire week. An entire week of memory-making that will be lost...

and tomorrow,

hsfjafakjfhas
what did you say?
aidshsajhd
you didn't say that, it was like 3 syllables
i like you
what?
i like you
oh, thanks, i like you too
i like you
yeah, i know

will it be any different?