Let me just say that whatever [personal thing] I say on Twitter or Tumblr or Blogger is never ever to catch anyone's attention. I don't say things so that people will go Syania what's wrong? or Syania who are you talking about? I do it because that's just how I work. You choose to care or not care. My mind is overflowed with billions of thoughts and dreams and my heart with feelings. It is not pleasant to keep everything in. If you wish to do something when I'm being down or seem as if I'm directing my words at you then do so because that would be really nice and I still want to know which humans out there are loving and caring.
K the other point about this entry is uhh, well, bits and pieces of things I've been thinking about that I want to pour out [thank the period].
Sometimes on Twitter I see people say things... that I think others should respond to. Like I saw Dinda talk about having a fight with someone? I was backtracking and I realised that nobody said anything to her after that. Now as I said earlier, she probably doesn't expect anyone to but still, don't you think she needs support? It was too late for me to say Dinda I hope things get better so I didn't. And another thing, when people show things to us through links... I find it sad when noone comments about them ~.~ I think a small LOL or whatever is a nice enough deed. Nobody wants to feel ignored ):
Oh I'll also declare this - I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE REPLY TO TWITS WITH RT'S AFTER THEM. Reason quite clear.
Another thing... How does it feel when someone you love or... like... trusts you and talks about you in public and thinks a lot about you and you know it? From what I remember... it makes me happy but heartwrenched a bit. When Fajar used to be important and my best friend forever, I remember seeing him talk about me in his PMs or statuses, I remember Adam telling me that he talks to him about me a lot and bla3. And when I saw and heard such things, I felt glad he still cares, but the problem was... it was hard to do anything about it. I knew that if I did something, everything will be alright but I did nothing, for a long time. Time dragged on. And most of the time it had to be him to start. When he did, we were back to normal and I had tend to wonder what would've happened if I took action earlier. Even though as of this moment I still know such feelings, I haven't learned how to do the right thing about it. Actually, I know what to do, but I can't do it. Even if I also know that the other side [slightly] feels the same way. It's my current problem. I think it's mainly because I'm scared. partly because I'm stupid. and a little bit because I wish I'm the one being ran after and held on to when caught.
Ahh so many things running in my mind I wish I could stop. It gets in the way of college stuff plus my general mood... stupid period with the bad timing ~__~
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